Maybe it's the stress from nearly graduating. Maybe it's just the stress of life. I'm actually a very unstressed out person, if that makes any sense. Even when I say I'm stressed, I say it with a smile. So I guess my body has taken a new route to telling me that life is more turbulent than normal right now. I keep having these really weird vivid dreams. One night I dreamt I was in a school and a tornado picked me up. I kept thinking the whole time I was flying through the air, "eventually I'm going to crash! I'm going to crash into the ground!" And then I plummeted from the sky and woke up right as the school hit the ground. Another night I kept dreaming of people who have strong personality symbols for me like ignorance, stress, discipline. I think maybe I'm not disciplined enough. Most people would think I'm crazy even saying that because I'm pretty good at keeping very intricate time schedules, but I feel like half the time I don't have nearly as much energy as I would like.
But I've decided that I am going to reach a few specific goals. I'm thinking that by constantly focusing my energies into specific goals I might actually accomplish something. I'm basically trying to use "The Secret." At first it seems like kind of hard work, but now I CAN'T stop thinking about my goals. Every time I see something that makes me smile, I'm trying to make a mental note to be thankful for it. I'm trying to be more thankful for the people in my life who are REAL friends. And honestly, because of all this, I can really feel at least a little tiny shift in the way life feels. I have 2 main goals. 1) I want to get power moves, especially head spins and elbow spins. Basically upside down spinny moves. 2) I want to feel financially comfortable. AKA, I need to make more money to cover the recent expenses in life. I can see a lot of things just falling into place if I reach these two goals. Just to continue reinforcing the things I want.....
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